So an old childhood friend died tragically last week. Had a heart attack while running a triathalon. Really brought a bunch of people out of the woodwork that I hadn't thought of or spoken to in 20 fuckin years. Due to the circumstances its kinda hit me pretty hard.
Of course this led to one person, pretty much my childhood best friend, creating a fb account. This is the guy, however, that completely abondoned me during my junior year of HS after we got arrested. Completely fucked my head up at the time and definiitely led to a lot of the negative social issues I've held towards myself for a long time.
Of course he and my brother have been chatting it up all day and my brother keeps texting me to get involved.
Fuck that piece of shit. I don't want to. But it's only going to look really weird once our friend's services are set up. Epecically if that fucker shows up to the funeral. I've already indicated I'm going and want to.
Do I just accept and try and ignore so it doesn't cause any negative attention? Do I say yes and tell him how much I hate his guts? Do I try and just let it go and shoot the shit with a guy that used to mean a lot to me?
It's been a pretty hard week for me already. I don't deal well with death. Really don't want this shit hanging over me right now.
Who wants to start an emo band?